A new puppy is a good distraction from an upcoming test and missing my daughter

We picked up Poppy today and she is gorgeous — so cute and so good natured. She is a very sweet puppy.

Getting Poppy also gave me some relief from my grief over my daughter's letter from camp. Now, I know that they make the kids write letters home. I also know that it is better to get a brief letter than a long one, because that means that Sydney is happy. However, I got a letter with four words in it: "where is the puppy?"  She did not tell me that she loves me. She did not sign the letter. Nothing! Four words. Seriously!? She made me address 10 envelopes because she told me that she was going to write me every day.  I knew that was a pipe dream, but I was hoping that I would get a little more information from camp than four words. Oy!

I also have to say that while I was with Poppy I felt really good. I walked with her when we got home and I felt great. I did get tired, but I was happy to be outside.

I have my CT tomorrow. This is it. This is the test that will be the basis to decide whether or not the clinical trial is working. This is the test that will decide whether I stay on the trial drugs, which I have been tolerating pretty well, or whether I have to go back to chemo. This is the test that determines how the next few months will go. I am not nervous, but I can't say that I have not been thinking about it.

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The good news is that we go to pick Sydney up on Sunday and I can't wait to see her. I want to hear all about camp and the things that she has not told me in all the letters that she has not written.

I am going to attach a few pictures of Poppy — that is why I haven't vlogged this...I think a video and pictures are probably too much technology for one posting. I will post next week and will update you on Sydney's time at camp, our luck at training Poppy and the results of my CT scan and blood tests. Wish me luck, cross your fingers, knock on wood, pray...do whatever it is you do, and let's put the positive energy out there.